State of the Union: Holy Shit, When Did It Become May?! Edition

All this and a picture of tits got me to where I am today.

All this and a picture of tits got me to where I am today.

Funny how those resolution things work; half of my posts in here are, “Oh gosh, how sorry am I that I haven’t written in here!” when, in reality, I’m only apologizing to myself. That being said, this is a case where I’m hardly ashamed of abandoning this blog for four months, for the dearth of posts actually represents a wealth of productivity elsewhere. I’m finally on the other end of sophomore review, finally capable of boasting the role of “member of the junior painting faculty” to show for it, and within the span of the month I’ve learned more about my artistic process than I have within the past three semesters combined. Even within the span of last break, I didn’t have much to boast by way of productivity/studio time, but now I feel as if I have a solid plan for Making Stuff Over the Summer. I want to experiment with media, do this and that, and I feel empowered to do so because I have a voice. I’m not really capable of painting for the sake of process in the sense that it doesn’t give me a proverbial carrot to lock myself downstairs and get high on paint fumes. There needs to be a theme behind it, and courtesy of an extremely helpful Drawing IV project, I think I have just that. I’ve certainly learned a lot this semester, and I suppose I’ll take now to look at a few entries back to see if those lofty goals I set for myself are in effect:

  • Exercise more! — Well, technically, I did exercise more — thing is, it was often when I was so desperate for an endorphin release, rather than a regular event. This is probably the first-last sentence of every hopeful exercise buff, but I have plans to get started next Sunday. I know, I know: don’t put it off! But when you’re as OCD as yours truly and your entire exercise regimen revolves around putting a sticker on an e-calendar, it might explain why I want to wait.
  • Monitor my emotional well-being! — This one has been a bit of an up-and-down journey of haberdashery, but I think I’m getting there. Part of this journey included making a “destress” journal, aforementioned spurts of exercise, and becoming a proverbial hermit both online and off, but it didn’t really click too much until I started to do some research into Buddhism. I may start to devote some serious entries on this tiny spiritual journey in the future, but to make a long story short: the essential philosophies of Buddhism make more sense to me than anything else ever has, and they give me more of a peace of mind than I’ve had in years.
  • Monitor my free time productively and finally stock up my Etsy shop! — This one is a victory, albeit a recent one! Say hello to the Brown Study! Bookbindery, which is happily stocked with some fine handmade tomes crafted by yours truly. After I’m done writing this and a little something else (READ: a gift), it’s off to make book blocks for the next two pieces that I’ll be adding to the stock pile. Very excited about this!
  • Finish all those commissions! — Having a very busy semester and people waiting for, quite literally, a year for these things means that some of these commissions are going to be null and void. Sad, but true, although I know said people who asked for these commissions are understanding folk. Still, I’m a lady of my word and will be doing these works anyway, if only so that they can ship out at the right moment. Besides, if nothing else, it’ll be a great exercise!
  • Top my excellent GPA last semester with an even better one this semester! — Actually, got the SAME EXACT GPA courtesy of a similar Drawing course faux pas, but I am totally okay with the grade that I received in that class as a result. Even though I wasn’t able to make the drawing quota (which is why I received a B+ on the project instead of an A, ergo pushing me to the A- range), those lessons I talked about concerning studio practice and having a fire under my butt are there. More on Drawing IV in the coming weeks (if I feel like it?), especially as I feel as if it is really starting to affect my artist statement and whatnot.

These two were not exactly on the “list” list, but are still goals that I know I’ve expressed in this blog somewhere:

  • Incorporating a sketchbook into my everyday life. — This is also a victory, indeed. I wish I could say that I made my most-used sketchbook, but it’s actually one of those run-of-the-mill Canson hardcovers with that faux-leather skin that is probably a plastic by-product. It’s less a collection of sketches of people in the street (although I want to try to do that — again, Dharbin is my sketch idol) than it is a bunch of pasted collage experiments and sparse doodles in pages. I’m bad at maximizing the space I’m given and will just take a clean piece of paper versus reuse/overlap images. Maybe that’s something I should start thinking about. I think that when I work, though, I like the room to think. There’s lots of lists and essays in my sketchbook, along with pictures that I’ll tape in and doodle on top of. Some people use sketchbooks to memorialize inspirations, but I usually use them to deface.
  • Blog more. — Well, I think we know the answer to that. There’s a blog I just started reading, though, called 2Birds1Blog — I know you’ve probably heard of it, One Person Who Reads This — and she has this handy State of the Union-esque thing she does every month. So, perhaps it’s time for me to do baby steps. OH, IT’S JUNE 1?! MAYBE I SHOULD THINK ABOUT WHAT I’M LIKE RIGHT NOW. Maybe do lists like this, eh eh eh? And then I can make more promises about essays I won’t write, post a picture to placate the non-masses called My Inner Guilt, and we’ll be good. It’s small steps, you know, and eventually those once-a-months might grow to once every few weeks and then you get a mojo going. Besides, blogs are Good For You if you want to be a practicing artist, I guess.

So, for being gone for five months, I think I’ve made some good progress on these points. I mean, I’m not perfect, but I also have seven months, so we’ll see where this takes us.

    • Loren
    • May 12th, 2010

    … I haven’t heard of 2Birds1Blog. 😦

    • Aww, so the link has spread! You can read about such fun as Sorr About The Bag and fellatio techniques!


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